Be still and know that I am God

Psa 46:11 “Be still and know that I am God.”

The lawyers say to hurry and file for divorce. “Do it now and get it finalized before you deploy.” There are so many “damaging” things that could happen if I do not.

1. If the divorce is not final before I deploy, then it will freeze where it is until I get back and it will hang over my head for me to worry about the whole time I am overseas.

2. I know that Sarah wants to move to Vermont. The lawyers say I can get it written into the divorce agreement that she can not move outside of a certain radius of south Carolina until the kids are 18 so that I can be a part of their lives, but if I do not get the divorce finalized before I go, then she can move up there while I am overseas and there is nothing I can ever do about it.

3. They say that if the divorce is not final before I leave, or if we do not have a legal separation, then any debt she accumulates while I am away would be considered our debt and I would be just as responsible for it.

They throw these fears out there and say “hurry, you need to do it now. You need to do it now.” They must see the fears playing out through my eyes because each of them follows their barrage of terror with the words “divorce is a nasty thing.” It is like talking to psycho clowns in a crazy circus who are trying to make me crazy with them. They have crazy eyes and maniacal laughs and they think it is normal. Well, it IS normal. It’s 50% normal in the U.S. I have had many conversations with different attorneys, one of them a family court judge, and they all say the same thing. I know from the actions that Sarah has taken and the comments she has made, that she has received the exact same council from the lawyer she talked to. It is insanity. From a legal perspective, it is what is best for ME legally. But I am not about what is best for me legally. I am about following God’s will. I am about what is best for my family. I am about what God leads me to do, and this is not it. The enemy wants me to think there is a deadline. There is not. It is never too late for the Lord. He is God. I will not file for divorce. I will not take legal action against my wife. I will not wait in anguish without hope. I will wait in Faith with longsuffering. I will not throw my hands up and say I have had enough, I give up. I will wait patiently on the Lord. Even if he does not deliver me, I will follow Him. I will wait now like I have never been able to wait before, because He instills the faith and strength and ability in me every day to trust in Him. I can do it because He is carrying me through this and I know that no matter how this comes out, He will continue to walk with me. There is nothing to be afraid of. “Be still and know that I am God.”